An Apology to anyone who wants to read
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An Apology to anyone who wants to read
Hello All- I will skip the whole "my name is" part and just get to it. I have been off these forums for the past several months. The reason being is that I just didn't have the time as I was getting my life in order. I could leave it at that but I feel the need to get this off my chest, for better or worse, I guess we will see after I hit the "submit" button below and some replies come in.
With the age of 30 nearing itself in my life, I find myself looking back at the past 10 or so years I have wasted. They were wasted because unfortunately , as my Grandfather was and as my father is, I am an Alcoholic. There we go. Some of you have met me in person at my worst as I was making a complete ass out of myself. As my dad ( who is celebrating close to 25 years of sobriety this year) says " Son, like me, you have finish the bottle syndrome" A dark joke about a serious subject.
I would say that up to this point, most of my posts on here were made under some level of intoxication. Hell, the bottle has cost me friends, lovers, almost my parents and a career back in the U.S. I finally hit rock bottom at the age of 28 here in Cambodia and decided that I have lost enough in my short life and I too deserve the chance to have happiness. I haven't really been proud of anything I have done in my life as alcohol has pretty much inhibited me from accomplishing anything to be proud of. However, I am proud to say that while I am not counting day by day, I am around 2-3 months sober and I couldn't be anymore HAPPY!
As the title says- I just wanted to apologize to anyone that I may have offended whether it was behind my keyboard drunkenly swinging my fingers at the keys or in person.
A personal apology goes out to Cambod- He really tried to take me under his wing when I arrived and we had quite a bit in common, but of course, no one likes a sloppy drunk. Sorry dude!
That is all I suppose, I am not the best with words but I just had to get this off my chest. Sorry if this comes of as selfish, and it is somewhat I suppose, since this is as much for me as it is for anyone else that reads.
I don't know if I will be posting a lot. I would like to RE-start an attempt at building some sort of network of friends now that I am sober and really have no plans of going back to the bottle. So, see ya guys out there at garage and what not.
If you got this far, I just want to thank you for taking the time to read this, whoever you are.
Cheers,
DM
With the age of 30 nearing itself in my life, I find myself looking back at the past 10 or so years I have wasted. They were wasted because unfortunately , as my Grandfather was and as my father is, I am an Alcoholic. There we go. Some of you have met me in person at my worst as I was making a complete ass out of myself. As my dad ( who is celebrating close to 25 years of sobriety this year) says " Son, like me, you have finish the bottle syndrome" A dark joke about a serious subject.
I would say that up to this point, most of my posts on here were made under some level of intoxication. Hell, the bottle has cost me friends, lovers, almost my parents and a career back in the U.S. I finally hit rock bottom at the age of 28 here in Cambodia and decided that I have lost enough in my short life and I too deserve the chance to have happiness. I haven't really been proud of anything I have done in my life as alcohol has pretty much inhibited me from accomplishing anything to be proud of. However, I am proud to say that while I am not counting day by day, I am around 2-3 months sober and I couldn't be anymore HAPPY!
As the title says- I just wanted to apologize to anyone that I may have offended whether it was behind my keyboard drunkenly swinging my fingers at the keys or in person.
A personal apology goes out to Cambod- He really tried to take me under his wing when I arrived and we had quite a bit in common, but of course, no one likes a sloppy drunk. Sorry dude!
That is all I suppose, I am not the best with words but I just had to get this off my chest. Sorry if this comes of as selfish, and it is somewhat I suppose, since this is as much for me as it is for anyone else that reads.
I don't know if I will be posting a lot. I would like to RE-start an attempt at building some sort of network of friends now that I am sober and really have no plans of going back to the bottle. So, see ya guys out there at garage and what not.
If you got this far, I just want to thank you for taking the time to read this, whoever you are.
Cheers,
DM
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I'd just like to say that DM is one of the loveliest people I have been fortunate enough to meet, if only briefly.
A splendid and forgiving fellow. He understands that sometimes people make mistakes. I respect and like him for that.
The very best of luck with your future. Rock on!
A splendid and forgiving fellow. He understands that sometimes people make mistakes. I respect and like him for that.
The very best of luck with your future. Rock on!
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Congratulations.
I have nothing but admiration that not only have you recognised the problem & sought a solution but you also had the guts to come on here & say so.
I wish you well in the future & my only words of darkness are to say: try to ensure that you don't swap 1 crutch for another.
Moderation in all things might be boring but it avoids many traps that life throws out..
I have nothing but admiration that not only have you recognised the problem & sought a solution but you also had the guts to come on here & say so.
I wish you well in the future & my only words of darkness are to say: try to ensure that you don't swap 1 crutch for another.
Moderation in all things might be boring but it avoids many traps that life throws out..
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Great story. If you decide not to post much how about an update in another 3 months?
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Your posts often showed a ready willingness to help others and share information. Carry on, DM.
All the best man, takes a man to admit mistakes and turn oneself around.
Btw, 28 is still YOUNG. Plenty of time to do things so don't think it's the end of the road for anything, seriously.
Btw, 28 is still YOUNG. Plenty of time to do things so don't think it's the end of the road for anything, seriously.
Awww, thanks man. Glad to hear you've been sober so long! I bet you're doing and feeling great! Just keep it up for the rest of your life, LoL! ! You can do it! ! !DetroitMuscle wrote:
A personal apology goes out to Cambod- He really tried to take me under his wing when I arrived and we had quite a bit in common, but of course, no one likes a sloppy drunk. Sorry dude!
Good luck and congratulations DM for making a start to changing your life for the better. But your fight to give up booze will never be over cause life and entertainment is all geared around drinking alcohol. I would suggest that while giving up booze you keep yourself occupied with an extension of healthy living, better foods and exercises to staying fit. Remember that body of your has to last you until the age of 100, so look after it.
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